I was dreading returning to Amman after Piopio was born. For probably the last two weeks we were in the U.S., any time I would think about leaving, I would cry.Part of it was knowing I would really miss my family. We lived with my sister and brother-in-law for three-and-a-half months; their house in Virginia Beach was Piopio’s first home. Part of it was undoubtedly postpartum hormones. Part of it was being worried about traveling such a long distance with a 9.5-week-old infant and what felt like 900 suitcases and baby gear. And part of it was a fear that I would be isolated and lonely.Transitioning from working full time to being a full-time stay-at-home mom has been challenging. I feel like I swapped one identity for another, but this new one doesn’t quite fit.Once I got to Amman and Piopio and I started to establish somewhat of a routine, I felt much better. I wrote a piece for Scary Mommy about some of the things I did to feel more connected: “10 Tips for the Introverted SAHM.”
I’m talking about being vulnerable to rejection. So that one mom you sort of know and were hoping to schedule a playdate with never writes you back. Parents are busy. You know it’s true — you are one. Or maybe she hates you. (Unlikely.) You have no way of knowing why someone does or doesn’t respond to you in a certain way — and more importantly, you don’t have the time to waste over-analyzing why. You have a child to raise.
Read the full piece here.